The Spectacle
I read a New Yorker article the other week that discussed how the Bubonic Plague led to the radical thinking of the Renaissance. Isolation and suffering opened people’s minds and allowed them to think in new ways. At the beginning of lockdown, I thought that like the Bubonic Plague, perhaps some of our generations greatest thinking would emerge from being nestled in our homes with nothing better to do than write the next great American novel.
Instead of opening our minds, though, the pandemic, at least in this country, has only further ingrained a destructive mindset. “What I see right now,” one of the public health experts wrote in the New Yorker article, “. . . is that the pandemic has not led to new creative thinking but, on the contrary, has strengthened all the worse, most stereotypical, and irrational ways of thinking.”
People who believed in science will continue to listen to the recommendations and wear masks, and people who don’t will continue to believe what they want to believe for their own convenience. I – along with so many others – am sickened that we have turned the safety measures of this time into a political statement. If you wear a mask you are a Democrat. If you don’t, you’re a Trump loving Republican. If you want schools to open, you are a Republican who doesn’t care about the lives of others. If you want schools to remain virtual you are a human loving Democrat. (I, by the way, stand firmly for schools reopening. But that’s a post for another time.)
As we get further into this crisis, though, opinions aren’t drawn as clearly as political lines. Within my own family we have deeply varying views on how we should rearrange our lives to accommodate this pandemic. My brother, who is also my roommate, is of the belief that we shouldn’t let anything dictate our life choices. He has continued to work and travel in much the same way he did before COVID ever hit. Every weekend he is camping in another small Colorado town with another group of friends. He has traveled to San Diego to visit a friend and just booked a ticket to Florida to see a different friend.
His behaviors have sparked more than a few arguments between the two of us. We both wear masks. We both believe that this pandemic has revealed the deep fault lines within our society. And yet our priorities are different. My priority is to do what’s best for my community’s health and my family’s health. Pierce’s priority is to live his life as close to normal as possible.
Despite our behaviors, despite the disastrous way our administration has handled this pandemic, despite the blame they have off loaded to China and the lack of leadership that has led to unsafe working conditions and continued school closures, despite all that, I believe that we still have the opportunity to turn this around. To learn from this. To create infrastructures that close the wealth gap and fix the disparities in healthcare.
That opportunity is the election.
My boyfriend and I were out on my back porch a few weeks ago, eating bratwurst and chips when somehow the conversation swerved to voting. He hadn’t voted in the last election, he told me, and he wasn’t planning on voting in this election either.
“I just don’t like either candidate,” he said as justification.
I argued that he was either entirely apathetic or incredibly privileged if he couldn’t find just one thing that made a candidate seem better than the other.
“How has Trump being in office changed your life?” he asked as a counter argument.
I sighed. So many ways. How could I explain this and not come across as a jaded feminist?
“As a woman,” I started, “I feel constantly threatened. Any day my access to birth control could be taken away. There are already restrictions around it.” I cited the recent exemption passed that would allow health insurance companies to no longer cover birth control if it interfered with their religious beliefs.
The truth was, though, it ran so much deeper than having my access to birth control threatened. So much deeper even than feeling threatened as a woman. Every day, with him in office, I feel threatened as a doctor, a scientist. I feel threatened as a person. I am a cisgender white woman. I can only imagine how other marginalized people feel in our country. Black. Hispanic. LGBTQ+. Anyone who is not a rich, white, heterosexual, cisgender, male.
When I was living in Thailand, I travelled to a nearby town, one I can’t remember now. I did a tour of something that has also since slipped my mind—something with looking at trees and birds in a swamp. But what I do remember is a German man, who was on the same tour as me. “I hear Trump is going to be your president,” he said.
At the beginning of the tour we had gone around the van and said where we were from. Now, we had our cameras slung around our necks, snapping pictures of the trees in the swamp, our feet hot on the wooden walkway that twisted its way around the ecosystem. This was prior to the election, before even all the primaries had wrapped up. Trump was not even the presumptive Republican nominee at the time.
“That’s not true,” I said. I looked back into my camera and zoomed in on a white crane in the distance.
He snickered a bit. I knew it wasn’t at me, but at the sheer thought that our country could be so idiotic to even entertain the idea of his presidency.
He walked away before I could say anything else.
I was embarrassed. Why hadn’t I said I was from Canada? Why hadn’t I invoked the rule we had so often talked about but never enforced?
This is how the world sees us. They were laughing at us before Trump was even the nominee.
For the last four years they’ve been rolling around in the rafters, pointing their fingers at the spectacle.
The pandemic in some ways has created an even playing field. It’s a sick twisted way to test the leaders of every country given the same scenario. The U.S. – despite our wealth, despite our resources, despite our assumed place in the world powers – has failed utterly. We have the most cases of the virus. The most deaths. Our government has failed our healthcare workers. Our teachers. Our marginalized communities. We are a spectacle for all the world to point at and say: That is what not to do.
Citations:
Cartoon by Kevin Kallaugher
Wright, L. (2020, July 20). Crossroads. The New Yorker, 18-23.